So it Ends....Or Begins...
Before anything: A disclaimer...of sorts. I'm all out of wack. My life has essentially been upended so I might sound flighty, crazy, emotional and you know what? That is OK for what I'm going through. I've come to terms with what I am going through and it's all over the place but I will try to be somewhat consistent in my madness.
I'm typing from my floor on a cell phone after a move. I just moved on the cusp of my father having had a stroke and a heart attack, having had a vicious breakdown from something an idiot said and a fight with a scammer who stole thousands from me for an imaginary apartment. And AND moved into an apt my ex had been inhabiting kind of left me emotionally raw. I am now a single mother of two boys. I say now a single mother as I can say it now with full anticipation and acceptance of what awaits me. I am terrified but I also know it's only a hurdle. That is all it is a hurdle meant to get over and keep growing.
There's plenty of blog posts that talk about , "I've never been single in my life", "Never lived alone" etc. But that isn't just a cliche. We really do make that mistake in droves. I made that mistake myself! And with my father - having almost died right in front of me, I've shed that persona and leaped for the unknown if you can call it that. I Moved from the comfort of my parents in NJ to a life in NY- not that far but I no longer live WITH my parents which as an almost 40 year old is ok after a divorce. In my case I needed to leave because my employer was
I'm typing from my floor on a cell phone after a move. I just moved on the cusp of my father having had a stroke and a heart attack, having had a vicious breakdown from something an idiot said and a fight with a scammer who stole thousands from me for an imaginary apartment. And AND moved into an apt my ex had been inhabiting kind of left me emotionally raw. I am now a single mother of two boys. I say now a single mother as I can say it now with full anticipation and acceptance of what awaits me. I am terrified but I also know it's only a hurdle. That is all it is a hurdle meant to get over and keep growing.
There's plenty of blog posts that talk about , "I've never been single in my life", "Never lived alone" etc. But that isn't just a cliche. We really do make that mistake in droves. I made that mistake myself! And with my father - having almost died right in front of me, I've shed that persona and leaped for the unknown if you can call it that. I Moved from the comfort of my parents in NJ to a life in NY- not that far but I no longer live WITH my parents which as an almost 40 year old is ok after a divorce. In my case I needed to leave because my employer was
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